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Written By Astraea

April 10, 2018, 3:48 p.m.(7/11/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Barric

I didn't actually think you'd do it! Barric! Ohhhhh my god. You're too kind, and much much too generous with your words. I have never bested you so handily, it's always a good fight and you leave me battered and bruised for days afterwards. Not to say I don't enjoy it, because I do.

Until next time...

Written By Astraea

April 8, 2018, 7:12 p.m.(7/8/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Jeffeth

I am convinced this man is a demon. Before the Inquisition comes to whisk him away, I promise this isn't because he managed to best me with such ease that I was absolutely ashamed after! I swear. He's a demon. Look at the way he moves and tell me it's not true. No man should ever be that lucky, or that skilled. It's inhuman.

Not. A. Single. Blow.

I'm watching you!!!

((No Jeffeths were harmed in the making of this white journal and I implore any and all future generations to applaud his no doubt epic deeds.))

Written By Astraea

April 8, 2018, 7:10 p.m.(7/8/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Agatha

How do I keep getting so lucky? The best of cousins ever. Agatha is everything we love about Redrain and some. Her special, unique humor and the bountiful waves of bliss she surfs into any and all locales are the highlights of my day.

I love you lots Aggie. Always and forevers Red Bear!

Written By Astraea

April 8, 2018, 7:09 p.m.(7/8/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Amarantha

Awwwwwwwwwwww!!! <3 xoxox <3 AWWWWWWW! (This goes on for some time. Seriously.)

Written By Astraea

April 1, 2018, 8:39 p.m.(6/22/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Echo

How do you still get me and Amarantha mixed up?! Do I need to call you by your real name?

My next big journal entry will be the unveiling of your true name. I have decided.

Written By Astraea

March 31, 2018, 7:31 p.m.(6/20/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Amarantha

I went to the Archives today and tried to get the Scholars to give me your White Journal so I could write some things you'd never write. Like how much you love little fur babies and when people give you hugs but they weren't having it. How do they know? It's a question I ask myself for the fifth time now. Yes, I did try when we were younger.

You started this! Yet still....how do they know? I even did that little thing you do with your eyes and the smirk and still. No dice as they say in the Lowers. What gives?

Written By Astraea

March 25, 2018, 10:06 p.m.(6/6/1008 AR)

"Things derive their being and nature by mutual dependence and are nothing in themselves" -a long forgotten Scholar

Written By Astraea

March 10, 2018, 12:28 p.m.(5/3/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Apollis

My brother seems to be under the impression that I am leaving him with nothing at all. Let it be known here that Apollis is the heir to my legacy. When I pass on I pray that he will be there to take up the reigns, that he might find cause in my cause. Even if he doesn't fancy himself a knight, I will leave to him my steel plate, my black journals and all of my writings. It'll be up to him to determine what he wishes to do with these things but my hope, my dream is that he would readily don the mantle of guardian to the people, as do I.

So you see Apollis, I leave you much more than you thought. I leave you the sum total of who I really am. The very essence of Astraea.

Laugh or roll your eyes if you will but you know I love you very very much.

Written By Astraea

March 7, 2018, 1:12 a.m.(4/24/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Amarantha

You can't die! If you die then I die. However...since my kinsmen insist on leaving wills I will do my best to make this painless.

-My armor shall be returned to House Redrain to serve another fierce warrior of the North.
-Sentinel's Justice is willed to Ser Ectorion, so that it may continually be used as it was meant to.
-All of my clothes, jewelry, wealth, and incomes go to my sweet reflection, Amarantha, because I love her so.
-Princess Sparta, I leave to Echo because I know she will cherish her as much as I and they get along so well.
-To my dearest brother Apollis, I leave to you a warning. Even death will not keep me from watching over you.
-To Avaline, I leave Topaz. My favorite sword and longest, most adored ally. Use him well.

Written By Astraea

Feb. 25, 2018, 11:24 p.m.(4/6/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Amarantha

You fought well against the Culler man. I was proud you'd fight for my honor sister. So sweet you are, even if you tell me not to tell everyone because you like appearing tougher than you are. It's okay. Only me and Vellichor will know...and anyone who picks up this white and reads it.

My sister has a heart and she's kind of a softie!

Written By Astraea

Feb. 3, 2018, 3:25 p.m.(2/11/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Aiden

The new First Seeker, Prince Aiden, will do wonders with his new position as the Voice of the Explorers. As per my request Vellichor, the scholars alerted me when the ink dried on his newest white journal. After reading it I have few words to offer but here lie my praises immortalized (hopefully).

Excellent choice of first words.

He values the thoughts of his fellow Explorers and seems eager to know their faces and deeds. Responsibility incarnate this one.

Written By Astraea

Feb. 3, 2018, 1:42 p.m.(2/11/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Isolde

Charitable works! For the children?! As you can see Vellichor, clearly I am excited about this. My cousin Darren spoke so highly of Isolde when I was back in Farhaven and now I see why. It's no wonder he was so charmed by the Velenosan princess, she's so kind! Her beauty matches her heart and I can get behind this.

Let it be known that tonight I will go bug my cousin to see if he has plans about the charity or the wedding reception.
I'll be sure to send along my donations with the rest of House Redrain's.

((There's little hearts and Lagoma's sigil drawn all over the bottom of the page))

Written By Astraea

Jan. 26, 2018, 10:37 p.m.(1/16/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Amarantha

I know you were jesting Mara, sometimes I like teasing you though. ((She's drawn a giant heart with A+A forever))

Written By Astraea

Jan. 26, 2018, 8 p.m.(1/16/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Amarantha

You hate me Mara? My heart is broken.

Written By Astraea

Jan. 26, 2018, 2:21 p.m.(1/16/1008 AR)

After contemplation and meditation it seems I have not yet fully comprehended the wisdom of my forebears. I'm grateful to those who reached out to me to help me see the error in the thoughts and statements of my white journal. Truly I never knew I had so many friends! If ever my descendants or family in the far future read this. Know that I was foolish, childishly naive and in some ways not ready to begin documenting who I was and what I stand for in the white journals of the Vellichorian archives. In my hastiness to "help" I didn't stop to think about how I might hurt their growth by not letting them walk this stretch of the road without my silly, idealistic notions interfering in their journey.

Never stop loving. Never stop giving. Never stop seeking to better yourself. Even when you've fallen prey to the weaknesses of your heart, don't let it be the end. Take your penance, pray for guidance and stand tall to keep soldiering on. The people will need you and they have little patience for stupidity.

My only regret is in my eager attempts to bring hope, love and unity to everyone I did not seek counsel before doing so. I will continue to make amends for what I have done in this time and it will not be the end of my story. Skip forward a few chapters in my white because it gets better but for now, read what I've written. See it for what it is and make not the same mistakes as I.

For the Captain Kaede, I will be more vigilant or I have failed in my oaths. You deserved better!
For the Legate Orazio, I have known no better men to guide my conscience and thus you have set me straight.
For the Knight Marshal Preston, Fight on Brother and don't ever let the fires of righteousness dwindle in your heart.
For the Seraph Ailith, I will scour the ends of the earth for the right means to renew the people's faith.
For the Archlector Aleksei, Your words ring true and the High Lord should be praised for he is worthy of our respect and praise.
For my cousin Marian, Thank you for kicking me in the ass and confiding in me. I will not let you down.

To all else, please have patience with me. I may be devout, I may be strong but I am dumber than a sack of bricks and I have no shame in owning up to it when I've done something. Well...stupid.

Written By Astraea

Jan. 26, 2018, 12:34 p.m.(1/15/1008 AR)

Forgiveness is the most powerful thing that we can do for our mind and our spirituality. Yet, it remains one of the least attractive things to us, largely because pain is a powerful reminder not to make the same mistakes that hurt us in the first place. To forgive is somehow associated with saying that it is all right, that we accept the evil deed. But this is not forgiveness. Forgiveness means that you fill yourself with love and you radiate that love outward and refuse to hang onto the venom or hatred that was engendered by the behaviors that caused the wounds. Forgiveness is an act of strength, or so I was always taught. Maybe I'm wrong, I can accept that because I'm not perfect and I can be daft or downright naive sometimes. What I do know for certain is that we must develop and maintain the capacity to forgive. When we become devoid of that then we become devoid of the ability to love as, I believe, the Gods meant us to. There is some good in the worst of us and some evil in the best of us. I don't want to believe any of us is above penance, redemption, and forgiveness. We only need look at our current predicament with the old Marin King and his daughters to see this is the truth of things. (Not that I endorse breaking curses that keep darkness at bay.) We all have the freedom of choice and it is a blessed freedom indeed.

Written By Astraea

Jan. 26, 2018, 1:29 a.m.(1/14/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Abbas

Lagoma's mercy teaches us to forgive and so I have. Many times before, but when it came to the Prince I felt like I owed him an apology. Not for any wrongs that I had done him but for how I might have looked askance or passed judgement on him, in private or otherwise. I'm ashamed that I did even if I never voiced it to anyone, I know in my heart that it was wrong. For this reason I try to stay away from making decisions about people based on what I hear about them, it's our deeds that matter.

He saved the Thrax and, while I'm not a tactician myself I've reviewed the journals and the writings on the War of Silence, the rest of the Compact.

Tonight Tori and I got the chance to have drinks with him and a good friend of mine, Princess Isabeau. She is such a sweet woman but that's a journal all to itself. Either way I'm grateful for getting a chance to hear more about his story, it's a hard one to hear but we've all had hardships. Despite all this he accepted my invitation to trade hot steel and the outcome of the match isn't as important as what I gleaned in the heat of battle.

Strength. Perseverance. Dedication.

Maybe I'm a fool but I think were these qualities used in the pursuit of a virtuous life he might be considered a hero someday.

Written By Astraea

Jan. 21, 2018, 11:03 p.m.(1/6/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Apollis

I'm watching you brother. Seriously. I'm watching you so behave and keep Mara out of trouble.

Written By Astraea

Jan. 21, 2018, 11:02 p.m.(1/6/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Acacia

I miss Rose Red. I was thinking of her today when I went to the Trader's Tavern. Such a cute little establishment and the people are so nice.

I will have to get in touch with her soon Vellichor. She's such a delight.

Written By Astraea

Jan. 14, 2018, 5:41 p.m.(12/20/1007 AR)

Relationship Note on Caelis

I sure hope some of that forgiveness trickles down this way...

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